Thursday, 24 July 2008

Startled and Amazed

I realized today, with a sudden and unassumed simplicity, that there has not been one moment in my life, not one section in the entire vista of my experience, that I can point to, saying: "Here I suffered without consolation".This so shines in my consciousness now that I cannot with conviction utter: "I have suffered", for pure suffering is unknown to me. No ill has passed through my life without good coming from it.

This is no new revelation. It is written: "God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the trial he will also provide the manner of escape so that you can endure it.". And again: "All things work together for the good of those who love God". Did not Mother Julian of Norwich also say, in her Revelations of Divine Love : "All shall be well, and all shall be well. All manner of things shall be well" ?

I knew these things; They were written upon my understanding, in the manner of a scribe copying a parchment he does not understand, imitating the marks and signs. But now, ah now,they have caught flame; They live in my breast with the lightness of the laughter of the saints.